Something New

So today I handed in my two week notice for leaving my job. Im nervous and excited at the same time. I'm looking forward to my new job, but also so scared. I'm happy to be leaving my current job and get away from the empty prommises that have been given to me on many different occasions.
I was asked if I had wanted to talk about why I was leaving. I stated yes. I told them most of it was because of the empty prommises regarding another position. I also stated because of the way things have been changing around here. I feel like the staff are not here for the residents that we work with and they are here to do what they what when they want to do it. Which makes me sick!
I'm looking forward to the ways that I will be able to grown at my new job, and looking forward to doing something for me and for my family. I will be able to work on getting my license and getting experience as a case mananger. So there are many new things to come regarding my new position.
I pray that GOD will guide me through this and to make me strong when I need to be, and to push me in a positive way towards getting my license.

I'm looking forward what is to come.

I'm also a little worried that I'm going to miss my babies. I will not get to be home with them like I am now 4 days out of the week. I will get time with them before I go to work but they will be sleeping when I get home from work. I won't get that time like I have now. I also pray that GOD gives me strengh to deal with this issue, because I know that this will make me weak, and it will make it hard for me to go to work. I know that I'm going to miss my babies so much, but I pray that in the end of it all I will have my license and then be able to get a better job where I will make more money and maybe be able to work less hours.
I feel so tore! There are days that I want to be a stay at home mom, and then there are days that I want to get my license and work..... If my husband made more money then I would be able to stay at home, but then I think about that and say wow I went to college and got my masters for what then???
I feel like so many things are running through my mind... I believe it is because of the change that is coming and how I want to make my husband proud of me and what I can do for your family.

So many things to think about!

why???

My sister in-laws left today after a good visit. Jayden got to try a lot of new things while they were down visiting. I really enjoyed the time with them and with my little family. So enjoying the time that we have had why is my husband arguing with me tonight about the time we put the kids to bed.?
Jayden used to get put to bed at 7pm and its slowly been moving back to about 7:40pm. Tonight my husband comes out of no where and says since when have we changed Jaydens bedtime. I stated a few things like since he doesnt get home till 6:20pm after eatting dinner then Jaydens going to bed where it leaves no time for Jason to have any time with Jayden. Jason says now I'm making excuses.
So because he brings up the fact that Jaydens going tobed later and later I bring up the topic of why is Lileigh going to bed earlier and earlier??? Then he tries placing the blam on me because I put her to bed early last night.
He gets mad because i dont want to give her bottles he gets mad because i keep Jayden uplater, he gets mad because i try to keep Lileigh up till 9pm. There are times i feel like i cant do anything right............... I know that im a great mom but why does he have to try and start a fight?

Why? We had a great few days we have great plans for tomorrow and now we are fighting........ WHY???????WHY WHY?????